Hey. It’s been a minute since I’ve written anything on my blog. The reason for that is…
When I began this blog in 2018, I literally had no idea how to start a blog. Literally, no idea. I picked the first theme that seemed simple enough to understand. I never really explored how to make my site look nicer than it was because I was afraid I would mess it up and then be lost on how to fix it. Hence, why I’ve had the same theme on my site since I started blogging. Despite loving how easy the theme I chose for my site was to understand, I never loved how it was on the somewhat plain and boring side. But, like I said, when I began my blog in 2018, I had no idea about how to set up a blog site.
When I began this blog in 2018, I knew there were two things I wanted to talk about, pop culture and life. I love pop culture, and usually when I talk to people it’s about my thoughts on things in pop culture. Over the years, I would be told here and there that I should start a blog where I talk about pop culture. Initially I was like, why? Why would anyone care to read what I have to say about this or that in pop culture?
After some time, though, I changed my mind and decided to start a blog. I knew, for sure, I wanted pop culture to be the main focus of my blog. I also knew that I wanted to talk about other things on my blog as well. I wanted to talk about life too.
My first article on my blog was one about life. It was about a little tree I saw on my local beach one winter that I decided to name Sandy Sue. I talked about how unusual and out of place it was to see this little tree on the sand in the middle of winter on a beach, and how at the same time there was something so sweet about it. Seeing this tree for a moment made you forget about real life and just smile. It’s true how it really is the simple things in life that can make life so special and meaningful.
When I began this blog in 2018, my articles about pop culture were a page or two long, and my articles about life were just light and carefree articles about my thoughts on the simple things in life. Somewhere along the line, though, my pop culture articles went from being a page or two to being way, way, way longer than a page or two. My articles on life went from being about a little tree on a beach in the wintertime that I named Sandy Sue to me talking about my faded away friendships and not knowing why they faded away, my physical and mental health issues, and then for several months in 2021, me just saying over and over again basically on a loop how “I’m really, really sad at the moment”.
In 2022, I found myself at a crossroads with this blog of mine. First, I ran out of storage space two years ago, and basically unless I was willing to let go of some of the articles I worked so tirelessly on, I was never going to have the storage space I needed to put up new pictures for any future articles. Second, my blog, in many ways, went from being a fun blog where I would talk about my thoughts on things in pop culture and the simple things in life, such as not caring for daylight savings time, to a blog I began to no longer recognize. A blog that felt all over the place. A blog without meaning. A blog without a purpose.
Then there was my very last article, “I Feel Defeated… Let’s Go Shopping!”, an article not read by many. I took this as a sign. A sign that it was time to move on from talking about life and my feelings and how I’m doing, and focus back on why I began a blog in the first place, which was to talk about pop culture.
In 2022, I found myself feeling actually thankful that my last article basically went unread. This, basically unread article, was the push I needed to start a new blog. This is why I haven’t written on this blog in awhile. I’ve been working on a new blog. A blog where (for real this time), I will only be talking about pop culture, or as I’m saying in my new blog “the arts” to just change it up a bit.
In 2022, I made the decision to start a new blog. I picked a theme that I actually really like. A theme that I feel fits my personality. I went forth and put in the time to understand (or at least try to) of how to put a blog site together from scratch. Thank you YouTube tutorials!
In 2022, lastly, I learned this. My new blog is one that is for me. I am not writing for likes or comments or followers. I am starting a new blog because I need a do over. I am starting a new blog because writing is something that I very much enjoy doing.
I feel like everyone falls into feeling discouraged at some point or the other when it comes to blogging, or just social media in general. Many times after I would publish an article, not many would read what I wrote. This would be followed by not many likes or comments for my article, as well. After this, many times, most of the time really, I would feel like I wasted my time. I would feel like what I wrote was pointless and stupid because it only got a few views, or a few likes.
Ever since I began this blog, I would measure my success based on how well my articles did. Views, likes, comments. My brother, a very talented writer and artist, told me you have to write for you. I never really understood that concept when it came to blogging because you blog so others will read what you have to say.
In 2022, I decided to start a new blog, a blog for me. A blog where I’m going to talk all about the arts. A blog where I’m going to give reviews, and updates on things to look forward to in the arts. If not many read, or like, or comment on my articles that’s okay because I’ve learned that in life you have to do what makes you happy and gives you joy. Writing about the arts does that for me, and that’s all I really need to make me happy and give me joy now. If no one reads what I have to say, I can now fully say that I’m okay with that.
I’ve learned that success can’t be measured in something such as how many likes one may receive. I’ve learned that happiness has to come from within. It took me a minute to actually get to a place of understanding that, but I got there. Maybe one day, I’ll be a successful writer. Probably not, but either way I look forward to my new blogging journey ahead of me.
Before I go, I just wanted to take a moment and say thank you from the bottom of my heart to those of you who have kindly followed this blog of mine over these last few years. Despite how I now try to not focus on likes or comments or how many views my articles get, I very much want to thank all of you for your support over the last few years. Thank you for taking the time to read what I had to say. Thank you for taking the time to like my articles. Thank you for taking the time to comment on my articles. Thank you because it really meant a lot to me.
Is this the end of this blog of mine? I’m not sure. What I do know is that if I do decide to write on this blog again, it’ll be about my thoughts on life or how I’m doing, and not about pop culture, or as I now like to say “the arts”. If you enjoy reading about the arts, be sure to check out my new blog “Pause From Reality” here. A blog where I will be talking exclusively about the arts and only the arts!
As always, thanks so much for reading!
Until next time! Whether it’s on this blog or my new one!
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As someone who also jumps between pop culture posts to a variety of other topics including my life and feelings, I totally understand how disheartening it can be when it’s not as well received and how it can take a toll on you. I applaud your ability to recognize negative patterns in your self-reflection posts. For what it’s worth, I related to them.
I wish you well on your new blogging journey and hope you find peace and fulfilment in your life and writing!
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