My 100th Blog Post!

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Hey.  How am I?  Thanks so much for asking!  You know, some days are better than others, per usual, as life goes.  Don’t worry, today’s article isn’t going to be about emotions, or feelings, or me getting all existential.  Well, it is a little about those things.  Today’s article, for the most part, is me talking about my blogging journey and how this very article here is my 100th post on my blog!

I began my blog in spring of 2018 with high hopes and high expectations that my blog would hopefully get noticed by some amazing newspaper or magazine and in turn I would become a professional writer.  Were these hopes, these dreams of mine unrealistic?  Of course, but what do we have if we don’t have dreams for ourselves of a better tomorrow.  Anyways, it’s three years later and I’m pretty sure it’s safe to say that my hopes for becoming a professional writer aren’t in my foreseeable future.

Continuing To Write, Despite Not Being Successful

I’ve never had what I would call a “successful blog”.  You know, the kind of blog that people check out the moment you put a new article out because they just can’t wait to read what you have to say.  Yeah, I’ve never had that kind of blog.  

Why then do I continue to write on my blog?  I really, really have come to love writing.  When I sit down to write something I try not to think about how my article will probably go unnoticed, or how not many people will probably read what I have to say.  When I sit down to write something I try to just be in the moment and focus on what I want to say.  If I thought too much about how many views my articles might or might not get, I probably wouldn’t bother to write anymore because I am not very successful in that department after three years of blogging.  

I would love to say that it doesn’t bother me in the least that my blog isn’t “a successful blog”, but that wouldn’t be 100% completely true.  I find myself from time to time feeling a bit down when I think about how after three years my blog still isn’t close to being “a successful blog”.  I wish I could say “eh, that’s cool, that’s fine”.  But, that’s not how I feel unfortunately.  It bums me out when I write something and put my whole heart in it and it feels as though not many were interested in what I had to say.  I guess though, that’s just the life of a writer.

How My Writing Has Evolved

My writing style has changed quite a bit since I began my blog three years ago.  At first, I wrote short and simple articles talking mostly about things in pop culture with the occasional article about life.  A few months later, my writing style changed quite a bit, and I began to write really, really long articles.  

These articles were usually related to things in pop culture in some way.  I look back and wonder to myself, how did I have the dedication to write these articles?  I mean these articles are so long it’s as though I was assigned to write a college paper, lol.  Anyways, most of these articles can be found in “TV Review” on my blog, if you’re wondering what I’m talking about.  I say “most of these articles” and not “all of these articles” because one of these really, really long articles can be found in “Friendship” on my blog, but more on that particular article later.  

These articles would take weeks, sometimes months to write.  I look back on these articles and I’m happy I stuck with writing them, despite how long they took to write and edit.  Omg, editing these articles took forever and a day.  I just want to say to those who took the time to read these ridiculously long articles of mine, thank you.

For the last year or so, I’ve tried to write shorter articles on my blog again, like the ones I wrote when I first began my blog.  Articles that are simple and to the point.  Articles that are sometimes existential and personal.  Articles that have a reasonable amount of writing in them instead of articles that are way too long.

Sometimes You Just Need To Talk About How You’re Feeling

When I began my blog my intention was, for the most part, to just write my thoughts on things in pop culture with the occasional article here and there about life.  I never planned to ever get too personal on my blog about me or my life, about wondering why my friendships from two decades ago ended just like that, about my depression, about my physical health, or about my mental health.

Somewhere along the line though I just didn’t care anymore about keeping everything just to myself, and found myself wanting to talk and write about things I no longer wanted to hold inside any longer.  I needed to talk about these things.  I needed to talk about these moments of my life.  I just needed to get my feelings out.  

Did writing about how I felt make me feel any better about my past, or my present?  Sure, somewhat I guess., but overall, honestly, no.  I still feel the same.  I still feel that sadness.  I still feel that longing to jump in a time machine and get the chance to redo my past which would in turn rewrite my present.  Despite how I don’t feel any different or better after writing something personal, I definitely feel it’s good to get how you feel out there, and not to hold it in.  I held so much in for so long.  Too long.  Perhaps, if I had I talked about how I felt or wrote about how I felt sooner, maybe it would have made a more of difference in how I feel about life and myself now.

At the end of the day, I’m glad I shared these moments of my life on my blog.  You may be wondering “Why?”, since I did just say that writing these articles made no difference overall in how I felt about life or myself.  Despite not feeling any better or different overall, I did feel a sense of letting go after I wrote these articles.  Writing about one’s past won’t change anything.  Writing may not heal one’s wounds, but it did help me let go a little of how I wished I had done things differently in my life.  There’s only so long we can hold on to the past, and writing about mine helped me to let go of what I had held onto for so long.

My Favorite Articles

It took a bit of time to get to 100 articles (posts) on my blog.  I have written quite a lot on my blog over the last few years on things in pop culture to my thoughts on life.  As I look back on my blogging journey thus far, I can’t help but think of all of the articles that I have written over the last few years, and like with everything in life I have a few favorites.

Title of Article: “Hey, Remember Me?”…  To Those Friends Of Mine Who Didn’t Care If I Faded Away…” – article can be found in “Friendship” on my blog

When I think of all of the articles that I have written on my blog up to this point in time, there is one article that stands out to me first.  This article stands out to me first because writing this article was a turning point for me on my blog.  This was the first article on my blog where I talked in- depth about something very personal.

The article I’m referring to here is the one where I talked about losing my friendships and not knowing why.  This is an article that I will always remember as being one of the hardest things I have ever written and shared on my blog.  

This article is super long.  This article is deeply personal.  This article was very emotional to write.  This article though, was something that I needed to write, something that I needed to talk about.  In this article, I put basically everything on the table about how this experience with my former friends changed me and my life.  

In this article, I wanted to make it understandable how ignoring someone or “ghosting” someone is one of the most hurtful and cruel things a friend can do to another friend, and how if you don’t want to be someone’s friend anymore just explain yourself, say sorry, and then say goodbye.  At the end of the day, an explanation and a goodbye will always be better than silence and having someone wondering the question of “Why?” on a loop in their head for all of time.

Title of Article: “Life and Time…  Is It Possible To Truly Appreciate A Moment In Time?” – article can be found in “Life” on my blog

I wrote this article a little over a year ago, when life felt pretty, pretty hopeless.  Time is something that this nerd has thought a lot about over the last several years.  What made me really start to think about life in an existential way, besides losing my friendships, was the amazing TV show Six Feet Under.  It was a show that had many, many layers to it.  It was a show that just truly, truly got what it feels like to be alive but not feel alive at the same time.  It was a television series that showed how sometimes happiness and sadness go hand in hand.   

The inspiration for this article came to me from a quote that was in the series finale of the TV show Six Feet Under, “You can’t take a picture of it.  It’s already gone”.  In this article, I questioned if it is truly possible to appreciate a moment in time.  I wrote about time and life and moments in time, and so, yeah, I got a bit existential in this article.  It’s impossible to talk about time and not get existential, well, at least for me it is.

When I was thinking of past articles I wanted to highlight and mention in this section, this was another article of mine that I thought of right away.  I’m really proud of my writing in this article, which I hope is okay to say.  I’m not saying I’m the best writer ever, or anything like that, when I say I’m proud of my writing in this article.  This article simply helps to remind me that even though most of the time I may not think much of myself, that there is something to me.  It reminds me to try and not think so little of myself.  It reminds me that I am someone with something to say, and how maybe I do understand life and time more than I give myself credit for.

Title of Article: TV Show Shout Out: Russian Doll on Netflix – article can be found in “TV Review” on my blog

I have written a handful of TV show reviews on my blog over the years.  Most, not all though, of my TV show reviews are very, very long in- depth TV show reviews.  Some might say my TV show reviews are a bit too long, lol.  

One of my favorite TV shows of the last few years is Russian Doll on Netflix.  It’s a very existential show that has bits of humor here and there within the show’s story.  I wrote a very, very in- depth review of this show where I talked about my thoughts on the series, along with recapping every single episode of the show in detail.  This TV show review, along with all of my other long in- depth TV show reviews, took quite a while to complete, but I am so happy with how this review turned out.  

It’s been quite a while since I’ve written any in- depth TV show reviews on my blog.  I kind of miss doing these.  These reviews though, took so, so, so long to do.  For now, I kind of like writing articles, or reviews, that don’t take months to write and weeks to edit.  I’m glad though, I had the dedication to write a TV review like this one, along with all of my other long in- depth TV show reviews, on my blog at one point in time.

Final Thoughts On Writing 100 Articles (Posts)

It’s kind of wild to think how this is my 100th article (post).  I enjoy writing so much, and am happy that I have continued to stick with writing and not give up on it.  Writing has come to mean a lot to me, especially in these last few months, and I am so happy that I have a place where I can go and talk about whatever’s on my mind, whether that’s about something in pop culture or me and my life.

Thank You For Your Continued Support

Lastly, I want to take a moment to say thank you to those who continue to support me and my blog.  Thank you for listening.  Thank you for reading.  Thank you for following my blog.  Thank you for liking my articles.  Thank you for your comments.  It really does mean a lot to me any time someone takes time out of their day to read something I wrote.  So, thank you.

Well, that’s it for today.  As always, thanks so much for reading! 

Until next time!

Author: Jodi Fisher

Hi! I’m Jodi! My dream is to live in NYC, see a Broadway show every single day, and write about the arts for a living. Until that delightful day arrives, I’ll be over here blogging about my love of the arts!

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